Post # 2

So how did it happen? How did I fall hard?

Well, honestly I didn't see it coming neither. But I was somehow aware that I was going there somewhere. I just didn't know how to stop it.

Can I stop it?

Would I be able to stop it?

Nah. I guess I can't.

And incase I can, why should I? Falling in love with someone is one of the greatest feeling this world can offer, for free. So why stop it? But honestly it made me smile, happy and it even made my day.

So while I was falling head over heels for him, I guess he was feeling "nothing". Or maybe he has? I don't know he seems to be confused, like one moment he makes you feel special, and then one moment he makes you feel like he doesn't care. The thing is that he keeps on giving you mixed signals. It's so mixed up that I don't even know what he's trying to say. I mean, I'm not some magician, I can't read minds obviously. He needs to tell me how he feels and what he wants for me to know them.

Post # 1

I'll start to share this crazy situation I'm in right now.

One year ago I met this guy at work. He's a newbie and by the looks of it (and after a thorough research😂) I think he's eight years younger than me. We met at work. And just like any other story, I can say that we "clicked". At first we just send each other messages regarding work and then for some time we started to send messages sharing our experiences and thoughts. We even shared how we feel about our every day activities, even our whereabouts sometimes. Our officemates would even tease us and ask us if we're already a couple. That is funny. But somehow it makes me smile. Like, the idea's not that bad. I mean I'm single and when we asked him, he's just broken up with his ex. So perfect right? Going in a relationship with someone who's not yet fully moving on is a no-no for me. Because trust me, it will hurt so bad. So how did I know that he's not yet over it?

Simple, you don't need to be a spy to know he's not yet moving on.

You just have to be a girl to know it.
The guy is so fond of the ex. And no matter how much I put that in my head, I don't get seem to remember it. I have to remind myself over and over again.

But then again, we don't choose when we fall, and who we fall for.

And that what happened.

I fall.

Hard.

Introduction

Hi, it's me again. In a different blog though. I miss sharing my thoughts through my blog. But this time, this blog will be different. It will still have my thoughts in it but I'm hoping to write on it every day. Or if you know me, i'll write on it whenever I feel so emotional. Because I guess that's the only time that I write something good. That's sounds crazy right? Well I think I'm crazy. And this blog's gonna be crazy because it will show how my emotions go up and down, it's gonna be a crazy roller coaster ride of emotions. That's if anyone's gonna be reading this.😊 So can we start now?